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find a reason

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I have two feet’s worth of projects to move from here to over there – from the possible to the more possible pile; to the surprisingly good pile, a few to the “well now I know that won’t work ever” pile.  They all have a best before date; some of which I know, others I’ve misread, so I pre-empt, and miss the mark…

factory windows

art factory windows

Every one of them is worthy of the best attention.  Unfortunately tonight, after 18 hours of steady steady…  for what feels like the past three months straight, I’m really really tired.  And there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it.

Bofoto shot (https://www.facebook.com/the.bofoto) from the sold out & very successful Nirvana Unplugged, which happened 6 days ago...

Bofoto shot (https://www.facebook.com/the.bofoto) from the sold out & very successful Nirvana Unplugged, which happened 6 days ago…

Last night I sat in for the GBS’ principal cellist to sight read Dvorak (a last-minute surprise; I tanked), the night before I was melted by the Goldberg Variations played by Mark Fewer (vln), Steven Dann (vla), Richard Lester (vlc), which was like witnessing the reason the planet turns and the sun rises.  The night before that I tried again to reconfigure my brain to fit the frequency of the instruction manual for a BOSS900  digital THING which will allow me to write and share songs with my collaborators….

Me, my sister and our Grandfather Kennedy in Trafalgar square, London, 1968.  I'd like to say that things were simpler then, but I find I can't, really.  In a bizarre way this is comforting.  I wonder if anyone gets that.

Me, my sister and our Grandfather Kennedy in Trafalgar square, London, 1968. I’d like to say that things were simpler then, but I find I can’t, really. In a bizarre way this is comforting. I wonder if anyone gets that.

What’s my point?

I think it’s pretty simple.  I really am really tired, and I need real sleep.

Also that I love what I’m doing.

Author: keirartworks

Artist, Musician, Writer, Teacher. Mum to an incredible person, friend to many, Incredibles. Gardener. Thinker. Collaborator. K

2 thoughts on “find a reason

  1. I found your post interesting again. Does it ever get simpler or easier ?? I think that for the creative mind it does not. I arrived here in Paris thinking that I would have both feet in and paint and explore and draw nonstop, but what stopped me was that I realized that I was in a state of sheer exhaustion. I realized that my retreat was more that just about my art but about me. I literally slept for two days. Now back on track with some much needed rest, i am painting and exploring and it is making sense to me. I give thanks to my mentor, Janice Mason Steeves for being intuitive and helping me find a direction.

    • I don’t think it’s supposed to get easier, but for me accepting the hard requirements of honesty and self-awareness makes it seem so. It’s an extremely compelling thing – I know if I go in to the work willing to change – my mind, my relationship to things – the results are better. Can’t do this stuff without looking after yourself tho – glad you got some rest. all my best, K

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