#Selfie 15: You get what you need I once played a minor (non-musical) part on a Rolling Stones Tour – ‘Steel Wheels’ in the ’80s. I have a tour jacket, even, that boyfriends past have happily worn… and torn and stained. This comes up now because I wrote the blog title first. It’s true. It’s still a good jacket, and I keep it to remind myself that I was there in my 20s, watching them play Sympathy for the Devil when Mick (atop a 20-storey stage tower) forgot the words… I asked myself in that moment – Really? Really? How can you forget the words to THAT song? There were many moments on the tour (way more telling than that one) that turned me off the ‘Stones permanently. For me it was like watching the end-play of 60’s dark side play out in industrial money-grabbing meanness – utterly devoid of relevance to the real world of human beings. Hope you can forgive me all die-hard fans. They’re a piece of history, granted, but I do not worship at that altar. An almost-finished selfie painting of the waterfall I grew up with on the Niagara Escarpment. I don’t have words to describe for you how sacred this place is – not just to me, but … just sacred. Nothing worthwhile is accomplished without limitation, I believe. This is not Protestant sensibility, but a law far older – we are not supposed to have every whim answered, every passing wish fulfilled. There’s a muscle of ingenuity in the human brain that requires ‘lack of (……….)’ to work effectively. Many folks default to complaint well before this happens, but if you can get beyond discomfort and engage ingenuity, you’re doing your job. This is photo reference for “White”, which is on the boards now #Selfie is a fine example of this. I started the project as I was just entering the heavy spring concert season. It was an impossible thing to commit to – fill the space at de Boer’s with art, write and hand-make a book, write and rehearse a performance art piece, and immerse my#self regularly in #Selfie online via social media. …in 14 weeks, while working full time teaching, coaching, rehearsing and playing cello, planning 2 summer camps in art and music, and attending to those things not work-related, but oh so important… I said yes because I knew I wanted to take a risk and do a show, and this was the only way to make that happen. Ingenuity has had to kick in, big-time, especially in these past two weeks. Photo reference for black canvas Here’s the thing, though – throughout the 14 weeks, but especially in these last two, I have had great need for some things that could have stopped me in my tracks, were they not fulfilled. No tripod, poor cashflow – a friend chips in half as a gift. Low on essential materials only available in Toronto, no time to get there – Tim at the Colour Jar finds what I need in days. Dangerously low on basic confidence and faith in myself some days, spinning my tires – someone says just the right thing (so grateful for this, every time) to kick my butt in a better direction. I need pro help to sign on for the Performance piece, since we have next-to-no rehearsal time available – david sereda, Coco Love Alcorn, Kristan Anderson, Larry Jensen, Sandra Swannell and a few other incredibles say ‘Sure!’ with no hesitation. I need social media ‘response’ material for the Book and the opening – eight people agree to put pen to paper and pitch in. I’ve never even met some of them. Here’s Brad Morely’s haiku, just in: Narcissi beckon in the light blue facebook pool cam’ra bugs fly off …you get what you need. photo reference for Totem 1 Paintings are due in three days. They’ll get done. Book and show have only next week – they’ll be fine. See you there.